palabok

feels like its already New Year HAHA! its not yet the finale for New Year's Eve, 

my mother just grant my favor to buy palabok for lunch YUMM!

one of my favorite dish an appetizer to eat is Mariz's palabok. Mariz's palabok  is one of the best palabok that I've ever taste in my home town in Koronadal City, every time i remember about palabok is a pasalobong from my mother just got home from her work passed by the store and fetch the order, a childhood taste of memory.

Mariz's palabok has its mouth watery taste, the smell gives an intensify feeling of the fresh herbs top with spring onions including the lime(kalamansi) and the crunchiness of the pork skin(chicharon) suite the combination of the noodle and eggs, and just what  i've thought it really compliments and caught my attention to my taste buds, its sauce is rich, thick and pure from the shrimp's stew, not like other palaboks that I've tasted which is dry and has a little sauce makes my tongue disappoint for the first taste. All in all Mariz's palabok has perfectly matched all the ingredients in the dish and delicious.

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green

finally photos has just been uploaded by my aunt back in LA,

Go green team!:)) during Christmas celebration with relatives a family picture in our family without my dad,

it should be a wacky pose suppose to be and then i looked awkward and wired with a smile face.   

me, mom and my sister.

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eye's nature for future

i paint, one of the challenging things that i do in the story of my life.. it connects how i would describe myself in coloring and different stokes of brushing and tells how happy i am.. so its one of my masterpiece in life to paint with colors..

it was requested by my ninong to paint about nature and abstract so it should be nurture nature for the next future generation and so i come up with colors that really attract me most through combinations like it was a magical mist describing about seeing in our eye how we are now shock trough different sufferings of people living now a days the generation of some people who affects the global warning of the earth.

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9th for 12,27,11

a day to remember with him, celebrating our 9th monthsary this december the first time we spend a day to each other..and here are some photos to remember taken by him.. i had the most awesome day all the time with him especially i felt so comfortable when i'm with him. had photo shoot  the whole day, ate meryenda @ jollibee and stay for a while in the park.

my first bought oxford shoes 

me and him:"><3

we both love our shoes by SO! F.A.B & primadonna

edited by : me:)

counting for our happily ever after:">..captured every moments, captured my kakulitan, cherish the time with you.. t:))i had so much fun with you.. thank you so much bibi & i love you so much:*.. 

photos taken by: Dave Magan

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undefined love

"to love someone is one of the unique feeling that i have now, to have him is one of my happiness, to be with him is one of the exciting part to have fun with love with all those laughter and smiles you showed is the best that i’ve seen in you. having you is one of my great desire. i love you so much."

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A Gift

last night i received a present from my aunt and she was my Kringle.

one of our family tradition during Christmas Eve is we gather and celebrate for the coming of Jesus and the birthday of my cousin.

and yes! she just grant my wish because of posting what I've want in our group family in the facebook, a set of paint and paint brush, thank you so much for granting my wish.:)

i'm going to take good care of it and use it in my artworks..

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Ending

The ending part of my december 25, 2011 Christmas Celebration

Last nigh during christmas eve was one of the enjoyable and fun celebration with my family and relatives in my mother side. now its time to end those fun and laughter at least we bond like theirs no tomorrow of non stop of happiness and laughter. 

But not all goodbyes are sad right, their is always and ending to beginning and their is a new welcome trough every goodbyes. saying goodbye to Christmas 11 is not sad for me it was having fun about life, family and those people who are around you. so far i’d rather say goodbye to christmas 2011 because of lots of reasons to tell, thanking and welcoming the year 2012 that i’m still alive and no harm with love, happiness and joy because of those struggles and difficulties in life i admit i have lots of sacrifices done but indeed it was worth it with those people who are part of your life. 

BTW! i’m not that pro yet when it comes to editing pictures and graphics still practicing and hopes to be a prof someday..and also a professional painter and an artist.

till next time celebration of chritmas eve with love, joy and happiness..

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Greetings!

enjoying the remaining days of Christmas this December 2011.

a little practice using Adobe Photoshop to kill the boredomness right now.

 i'm not that pro yet sooner or later i will be and learning some of it to improve more..

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Ms. oxford

one of my favorite shoes meet ms. oxford bought her at SM department store cost around php600 that really attracts me most.

i remember, when i was sitting trying to fit-in my shoes a girl loot me from top to bottom of what i'm doing it's because of the shoe that i'm buying, after fitting in i was looking around to look for different shoes then she was also following me until he recognize in the counter she saw what i buy i the department store.

i know she like my taste how i choose my shoes.

and i'll really take good care of Ms. oxford.:)

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break it down!

and i feel about.. how relationship end up.. so i paint what i felt last night
a feather through freedom of toughs, actions and words. it more on how i describe my feelings yesterday and today, feeling that someone was gone but still i should be strong enough through struggles of my life.:)

sorry, i can't be perfect:'(

i thought i was going to love the boy whom i'll be with forever. but sad endings to really exist till its the part that you'll surrender the moment you'll about to give up and i mean it i'm one of those who encounter that kind of phenomenon. but my heart still beats for you but i guess i'm in a traumatic disease right now that really hurts my feelings a lot.. and that's what i get from love pain and sufferings even though i have those happy moment with the one whom i really love, still my love belongs to you..it will never change its just vanish and needs relaxation for a while..


-till last tears will fell off into my checks...:']

pop it up on my mind

"day after day, i must face the world with strangers when i'm alone and not that strong"
                                                                                          -carpenterhill 
6:18 in the morning..this song reminds just came out on my thoughts memo ring some of my happy memories with some other people around my world.. the song just pop-up in my mind while thinking of him. i just can't imagine life with out him.. that's why i'm so blessed to have him.. i prayed a lot, asking God to have our relationship last.. :)

way back into your love:)

it's like we're never had into fight when we laugh to each other:).. things will get into better when we fix it in the right time and let it cool down for a while.. we just need a little while to missed each other and have a littler talk to understand each others side..but now with those giggle I've heard the most is like your trust is being back to me again..i'm so lucky to have someone like you.. you made me special even i'm in the wrong line of our love.. you made me stand again even i'm already on the ground loosing all my hopes that i told to you.. i'll keep holding on no matter what happen... coz i'll keep myself falling in love to you Dave Jerusalem Magan. :* lots of love..

buhay na sasaktan

                Simple lang naman ang buhay ko kumain, matulog, pumasok sa eskwelahan kagaya ng dati walang pag babago sa aking kinakaroonan kundi mabuhay ng kompleto sa aking kinakalagayan.. isa lamang ang pinaka ayaw ko ang masaktan at mawalan ng tiwala..

               Isa akong dalagang na na hulog sa pag-ibig ni nimo man ay hindi ko akalain na ako'y mahuhulog sa matalim na sakit na naidulot nito.. hindi ko akalain ito pala ang kinalabasan ng sobrang pagmamahal, akala mo manhid pero nasasaktan na pala, akala mo masaya pero merong dinaramda.

Siguro nga naman tao lang kaming nag mamahal normal na nasasaktan sa mga dahilan na kaylangan indindihin sa buhay, hindi natin alam kung sinong tama o mali, hindi rin natin alam kung kay sino tayo maniniwala. pero ang pag sabihan ka ng galing mismo sa isang taong malakas ang loob para lang sabihin lahat nga init ng ulo, kulo ng dugo, inis at galit. lahat ng yun ay hindi ko inaakala na lalabas sa iyong mga isipan. masakit pero tatangapin, hayaan nang maging manhid maayos lang ang lahat.

              Isa lamang ako sa mga halimbawa kung paano na sasaktan. Malungkot, umiiyak, nakatulala, malayo ang tingin, hindi alam kung anong gagawin, magulo ang isip, tahimik sa isang lugar, dinadamdam, iniisip sabay sa tahimik na lugar. lahat ng ito ay hindi maganda sa kalusugan lalo na ang pag papahaya sa sarili, sakit lahat ang nararamdaman sa lungkot na naranas. hindi natin alam kung kelan mapapawi ang mga sakit at kung kelan humilom ang mga sugat.. pero merong mga paraan kung paano nga ba natin susulosyonan ang mga bagay na darating sa ating buhay. ako isang babae na nahulog sa pag-ibig, akala mo kayo na habang buhay pero hindi pala.. 

hatred

i hate those stupid lies!!! those words that came out  from your mouth makes me feels like loosing my trust with you.. why do we always love someone who love them also?.. esttuuuped!!!~:(

26/04/11: i though you really want to leave me.. and i'm happy your not!

how do i start and begin with this note? typing down what i've felt. the anger, pain, sufferings, heartaches, sadness, and etc. how i wish i'm going to die sleeping or have a sick that may lead to death. how could this be happen when you gave all your love to the person you want to be
 with and don't deserve a certain effort.. i face all challenges. meet those stupid reality that cross by with no condition to stuggle my life in miserable.. i cried and cried till my last tears wash the pain in my heart.. those moment that i've been so lucky enought with the person i loved. those laughter that i showed over joyed infront of you.. those time i didn't waste just to see a person i merely inlove with.. those days was just like a dream of happiness and reality. hapiness that end with sadness.. and reality that full of uncertain things..

to the person i loved..
it was way back in three years when i recognize someone like you.. and i never tought this would happen that love cross our pathways with different meanings and feelings in our heart..  some people tells me, if i've been inlove with the person whom i love then he is lucky enough to have you. some people understands me for who i'm really i.. my personality, attitude, apperance, and it's just the way i am...simple, childish kind of personality..

you've said that your affraid that you might loose me.. you said there will be forever. and all that you've said is just a only word how a girl will fall inlove with traps of sayings.. prove me i'm wrong.. prove it.

you made a wrong decsion, or maybe i was the stupid one crying out for no reason.. i push myself hard to understand you. swallow all my pride too end up the fight. and i don't get it.! why should we always run trough those misunderstandings in life.. i always said to myself that i'm tired of getting hurt.. but i should not be.. i should not..


This is who i really i am.. writting all what i felt..because i could express it than showing my anger to anyone else.. i cried  because i'm scared to kept the pain in my heart.. i always pray and ask God why?. why is their anything reason??.. maybe i'm used to it.. to get hurt..or is it  just a part of my life.. because every person i loved hurt me as they want to felt for them.. i tried to be strong enough.. but enough is enough.. i tought you know me better.. and its a no.

My new page diary

and yizerie>:D i found my new diary through website.. blogspot coz some don't know about this one but some will know..Ok.. OK!! if you know it already just keep it that you know my secrets in life.. shhh.. please shhhhh... because i want to write it in private that no would know how i felt everyday..:D its kinda record of what i did and do.. blah...! so much for the siiiiyingss:)))


*toodles!!;)

today's run on my mind

Alam mo ba?.. oo nga naman siguro nga hindi.. ito kasi ngayon ang takbo ng aking isipan habang nakikinig sa radio station mellow type na mga kanta.. hindi ko alam kung san mag sisimula sa pag sulat ng aking bagong entry na blog ang kwento ng aking buhay... honestly i pause for a few minutes of what to type down of what i'm thinking and bother me in times of like this moment, listening to music when your in down.  because
it's a part of personality.  the future, wants, desire, dreams, plans and etc. so much to think, so much to understand..

 this is who am really i, expressing word by word of my thoughts, imaginations, feelings, dreams and emotions.. who cares i'm just the real me.. practicing also my english english grammars!!!>:)) hahaha.. i don't want to take it serious but more on happiness on what turns my life into upside down.. tragic scene but an adventurous dreams.. i know i made a lot of dreams and also bad moods in times of disappointment. disappointment because i don't get what i want in all times that i need so i need to suffer than to force someone just to have my satisfaction in life but yizz.. i understand those people why.. why i can't have the certain things like this and that because i know their are reasons why.. why.. why.. and it says i should keep dreaming to have this and those and all that i want.. it just matter when you want something that you really don't get... 
all i can say is that "life is not about rich and poor but it is with in us on how to treasure our part on earth" to know what's God plan for us.."

Back Blogging

And yes I'm supper back.. i want to continue blogging because i can express myself through writing my anger, emotions and what so ever you call that..:D i change the title of my blog "Ang kwento ng Aking Buhay" to tell what's going on with my life and what I've feel.:) i don't care about the followers as long as i want to express myself that's all.